It's cold out today and it feel like it's been as dark as it is now at 6:30 since 3pm. Right now I'm not in a bad mood, but not in a very good one either. It's probably seasonal depression. Or hormones. Or a low brought on from my post thanks giving reduction in caloric intake. Or the nothingness that marks the time right before a change takes place. Right now I feel like I don't amount to much, like I've gotten so deep into trying to make myself into someone else that the only thing left for me is to start making myself from scratch.