Bohemian Rhapsodies or What I Should Have Turned In As An English Paper 20 Years Ago

Late in the fall of 1989 I was a lonely seventh grader laying across the very back row of seats in my mother’s minivan. My right leg was hoisted in the air as I had just twisted my ankle in gymnastics class and during the ride home I found solace in the idea that the pain I was experiencing in that moment would only serve to make me more interesting the next day at school. My entire existence at the time was a struggle to become interesting enough to conquer the many different ways in which I was experiencing pain. Then suddenly, for the first time since cliques and boys and the need to fit in had overtaken my life, I was jolted out of thoughts of inadequacy. Five minuets and fifty five seconds of music mesmerized me and when it was over I sat straight up and asked, “What was that?” Queen changed my life that night. The story of a poor boy who nobody loved woke me up to the fact that beyond the confines of what other people thought about me there lay a world of beauty waiting patiently for me to take notice, and that thought I may have felt like I was the only person in the world who didn’t have a place I was far from the first person to ever feel that way. Since then Queen’s music has excited and comforted me and will no doubt accompany me along rest of my journey. So Brian, Rodger, John and Freddie please know; there are many times you still make me cry, and every time I hear one of your songs I always smile.

technology redux

I'm testing different technology to see how it works and if it will work for me. WEEEEEEEE

technology

Yesterday I got a new phone. It isn't anything too fancy, juts a phone with a slide out keyboard and unlimited texts and Internet. It's a lot nicer than my old phone and is totally inspiring me to get my friends on twitter.
And oh yea, I got an iTouch. I've already watched 2 eppisodes of Mr. Show while working out and it was the best workout in the history of the world. Now I'm sitting 3 feet from two different computers and using iBlog to compose this update. And even though I can't spell check this (yet) it will be known as the best blog entry ever!

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

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it's all around us

I'm a very happy girl.  So this whole idea to look for the joy that surrounds me sounds good, but it may be just a little to inside my comfort zone.  It is the spreading the joy that is the hard part, especially since those who I believe really need the joy are the ones who also make me the most angry.  And then i get to thinking that I can't make anyone happy, and I know that's the truth.  But I also don't have to horde my joy when I allow frustrating individuals to get all up in my craw.  When i get frustrated like that I can feel the joy being sucked out of me, but I know whats really happening is me wringing the joy out of my self.  So maybe I shouldn't try and spread anything.  Maybe I should just try and sit with what comes my way while holding the joy i have collected in my heart. 

solution

I think 2009 is going to be the best year ever.  My New Years resolution is to do everything I can to support and bring out the best.  I know I know I know that i can't just make things be awesome or think my way into a good situation.  But what i can do is seek out happiness... the kind that is hidden, either behind struggle or in the mortar of the mundane.  I will find it and I will cherish it and share it with those around me.  I will find it and allow it to lead me where it may. 

procrastination can be fun

Well I've made a pretty sizable dent in my holiday to do list, but I'm, like, totally over making any more progress at the moment.  It is my habit to gain a little momentum and then coast.  But I'm happy with the things I have finished and if High School is any indication I will totally get everything done right on time.  OK maybe if I make myself clean my kitchen I will be more than happy to jump into a holiday project!