finding my voice: a project for the summer of '08

Some people have a problem choosing their battles, raging after every little thing they deem personally offensive until the world is so seemingly stacked against them it is only a matter of time until it topples over and crushes them.

Me, i have trouble fighting my battles.

I'm pretty sure I know what is worth getting upset about, but the thought of confrontation closes up my throat like in my nightmares where i'm too scared to scream.

And it isn't just standing up for what i believe.

There are so many things I want to put my energy towards, but when a starting place doesn't immediately present it self i shrug my shoulders, out on my blinders and direct my focus to the fruits of other people's labor.

And it's not only creative endeavors.

I want to be a person that I like.  I want to like me for me, not because what i do or say is pleasing to others.

And so I set out to find my voice.  This is the voice I will use to tell people about my opinions, the voice i will use to express myself.

This is the voice that will not sound weird when plaid back to me because it will not be the voice in my head, but the voice in my heart.