perpetual success machine

I love how everything in my experience seems to tie together. I was watching the Real World and one of the girls was talking about how working with an entrepreneur made her realize that success isn’t a place you get but an ongoing journey. I’ve been thinking about the idea of living ones life as a process rather than a race for some time and have been trying to put into practice. I was trying to define success outside of this realm, focusing on trying to find it inside of me rather than in outside response to me. This morning it came to me that beyond seeking outside validation, I also look to others to provide me with options to ultimately move my life forward. If I am involved in something and I’m enjoying proud of my self, but the engagement is limited, when it ends I don’t seek out or try and create new opportunities in this direction. I end my involvement unless someone offers me an opportunity. Likewise, when I am in a tolerably bad situation I stay in it because I don’t see (nor am I actively looking for) any better option. I’ve known about my laziness for some time, but this morning I actually understood it. My normal MO is to go thru great spurts of effectiveness and then allow myself to atrophy prolonged periods of inactivity. I didn’t understand how to focus before, didn’t know what a positive risk was, and today I get to make a change. It is my intention to approach all things openly and without expectations. I will continue on with them until it is clear to me that they are not going to work for me. And when I am in a situation where I am performing at a lever that I am proud of I intend to find new opportunities so I can grow and be a perpetual success machine. And just so you know I was washing dishes while the Real World was on (see previous post). I don’t normally watch the show (at least not this season) and am happy to have seen the one on today. I love those little hints that you are on the right path.