I got mad again and this time I had a lot more to see. I got mad today because I had all these expectations about the way things were supposed to be and when I was thrown a bunch of curves I couldn’t deal with it. I suspected those pitching to me of throwing spitballs and I stomped around and crossed my arms and yelled like a good baseball manager should. But then I remembered that I am not in the sports industry and have a life of integrity to live, and that’s when I made my expectation revelation. I saw that I didn’t even know I had these expectations until I was reacting to them, and can see how people like those I was upset with yesterday are simply in a similar position, reacting to a world they hadn’t bargained for. And so I forgave myself for being selfish and expecting everything to work the exact way I thought it would. Then I apologized to the people I was laming for my unhappiness. Now I am leaving town and I only expect to expect nothing.
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